Venting

Have you ever said that you were over something and tried to forget about it and then a few weeks/ months down the track it all comes bubbling up and explodes over and you realise that you never really were over it in the first place? well that is exactly what has happened to me in the last few days.

Not long after the boys were born i heard that someone i used to work with that had lost her baby at about 18 weeks, So i done what i thought was the right thing and called her to make sure she was going ok. She hadn't heard about me losing my boys so we talked for a bit about our babies and everything else. She had lost her baby a few months before my boys were born. I thought i was doing the right thing by trying to help her. Now i wish i didn't do that and that i had never got in contact with her.

It all started one night on face. book she messaged me and said that she needed to tell me something that was going to hurt me so she didn't want to tell me. I told her i wanted to know anyway ( now i think well if its going to hurt me and you don't want to tell me, then why bring it up in the first place? ) so she starts telling me about a lady that we used to work with that she had always hated and i didn't get along with. She told me that this lady i will call her E, had apparently seen photos of me pregnant and had said that i was so massive that my babies had probably killed each other so they could get more room for themselves. She also apparently said a few other things too. I was so shocked, and angry and hurt that anyone would say that. I never really got along with E but i didn't think that she would say something like that especially because she was one of only a few people that sent flowers to me. So I rang my best friend in tears and told her what had happened. The next day i got a call from my best friend who told me that E had never said anything like that and i had another friend that also works with E that doesn't get along with E either but confirmed that E had never said those horrible things about me.

So i found out that the lady C that told me these things had just made it all up. I cannot understand why someone that has lost their baby and knows what it feels like, would say something so hurtful. I really don't get what she got out of saying that to me. Did she want me to hate E, Did she want to start a fight or was she just looking to hurt me?
I am starting to think that she was just out to hurt me but i have no idea why. I have never done wrong by her.
I had told myself that i didn't care and tried to forget about it but it has slowly started to spill out and i realise that i am so pissed off and angry about it. How dare she say that.