So many firsts!

In the last year i have experinced so many firsts that i didnt think i would be experiencing so soon. First there was my first pregnancy and then i found out that i was having twins which are the first for the family. then there was the first move out of the place that i was born which was also the first time that i had ever been to this state and there was also alot of more firsts that came along with the pregnancy. I had so much fun with all these new things until another first hapened for me one that i never want to have to experience again, this first was the death of my babies. I had never known anyone that had died before and i never thought that the first experience with death would be my own children. Within a month of my boys passing my grandfather comit suicide and my uncle died in a car crash. Like they say it doesnt just rain it pours. i guess who ever said that was right.

I was looking forward to experiencing so many new things that came with having babies but i didnt expect that i wouldnt get to have it all.


I have had alot of new experiences since then some good but mostly thay are all bad. On wednesday i had another first, this one was a really good one. I went to my first concert at 20. I went to see pink in Melbourne and it was so much fun. I had completely forgot about my pain and let loose and had the best time ever. I am so happy thta i decided to treat myself to that experience. I didnt know what to expect but i was blown away. I took my sister with me and we had such a great time not just at the concert but shopping all day. i was so exhausted by the end of it, but it was well worth it.

She is an amazing singer and performer, it wasnt just a concert it was a entire show. If anyone that likes her gets the chance to see her i would definantly recomend it. It was definantly an experience that i will never forget. I think that it was probably the second time in 7 months that i have been truly happy and not had to remind myself to smile.


This is me and my sister Tara.



and pink and white confetti that got released down ontop of us. it was so pretty watching it all fall on us.